Chapter 1
My Story
My father Frank
(Francis, means "Free Man")
served in the last battle of
the Second World War,
then the Korean Conflict,
after which he was stationed at
the Army base in
Butzbach, Germany,
when I was born,
first daughter,
third child of six.
We were moved to
New Jersey that same year
until I turned six
and we were moved to
Wilkes-Barre, Pennsylvania,
when my dad,
thankfully,
opted out of Vietnam.
I remember the trees in my first yard.
They bloomed a luscious white fragrant flower that tasted as sweet as they smelled!
Around age 4,
I would swing as high as I could
and sing my heart out to the sky.
I’m still doing this!!!
Yay!
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My mom, Delores
(mother of sorrows)
taught me my first song,
“Don’t Fence Me In”
From here I see that’s been
my life’s mantra. ​
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My dad,
a very tough soldier from age 17,
loved Mario Lanza,
a famous operatic tenor
in those years.
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Watching my dad’s expression
of bliss
while listening to Mario
is where I first became aware
that contradistinction is intriguing;
tough soldier
meets operatic tenor.
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I observed being “out of the box”as an enjoyable mystery.
My father wanted all of us kids to
play music,
although he did not,
and couldn't
"carry a tune in a bucket".
His constant whistling
was contagious to me.
Yes, I'm a fantastic whistler.
In my childhood,
Julie Andrews with her crystal clear,
bell-like voice and most elegant,
earthy, and exuberant expression
of her art gave music to
all my senses.
Then, it was the Byrds.
Oh yes,
softening the slicing words
of Dylan
with their 12 string guitars
and fluid harmonies.
Crosby, Stills, and Nash
with their valiant voices
and heartfelt insights,
decrying the government
killing of peaceful war protestors
and glorying in the power of
a Woodstock (Joni’s song).
I wasn’t even old enough
to see the movie.
Buffy Sainte Marie
with her Native American
war torn heart
“Universal Soldier” ,
singing about the grunge FBI
killing Indians and energy companies stealing uranium from their lands……
and real love,
“Lift Us Up Where We Belong”
and
“Until it’s time for you to go”
more contradistinctions.
Waves of LSD flooded our streets and seemed to end the war protests.
Pink Floyd……LSD…..Dead Heads, LSD...Moody Blues,
and Jefferson Starship.
Hitchhiking to New York City at 15 whenever my favorite bands played;
losing friends to heroine overdoses
because their number came up
for the draft.
Then Joni. Mitchell.
Deep stuff.Soul moving.
I barely knew what I was hearing, and I loved it.
We have a similar vocal range and it was easy for me to sing her songs.
Nothing syrupy,
straight up observation articulation,
opalescent and complete.
I love Joni. My sister heart.
Then disco but nothing stuck to me there.
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I lost my brother Danny to suicide.
My younger brother Ernie to a maximum security prison (he was about 14)
and my sanity itself hung in the balance often.
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I had a son. A beloved son.
Then I became an on fire Christian.
Then I married a Persian......
Oh the story!
........to be continued